You’ll never fit in anywhere

Yesterday, I caught myself asking God why do I not fit in with others? It all started when I was 12 years old. The first time I felt left out was when I sang in the church choir. Since I hit puberty before others I felt inadequate due to my deep tenor vocals. Secondly, I was bullied for the way I looked, talked, and acted because I was “too weird” for not dressing like others, being into drawing, and oftentimes, I just didn’t find others interesting to be around. Since I felt misunderstood I isolated myself from the world. In return I let the devil convince me it’s best to keep quiet and never talk again for years. However, the more I matured as a young man I realized that this mindset never gets you anywhere. If anything, it’s suffocating your personal growth!

The world has nothing for you because you will always feel like you’re missing something. These days I have to keep telling myself that I am not of the world, I just live in it. You should see the reactions I get when I tell people I’m not taking a vaccine, I don’t drink, smoke, or take drugs, go to bars and clubs, and I believe in God. In due time I’ve garnered most of my peers, friends, and co-workers respect, but to others, I’m just a “weirdo”. My younger self would be bothered by this but since I am a young man of God I have to realize that God did not create me to fit in, He created me to stand out!

1 Corinthians 13:11 states, “When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things.” Over the years of studying human behavior and communications I’ve learned that many people exhibit what I’d like to call “high school energy”. In translation, “high school energy” is when people still feel the need to impress others with goofy and childish things such as:

How many men/women they can sleep with
Who can drink the most without vomiting
Who’s the best fighter in the group
Cheating on a significant other
Smoke before school to get high
Skip school to get drunk/high
Driving drunk in the middle of the night

We as people need to realize that we physically graduated high school years ago. However, it’s time to graduate our minds mentally and spiritually. The more we cling on to the “good ol’ days” we will remain on a low vibration. Why is that though? We have programmed ourselves to live in the past. Consequently, we constantly tell everyone about how great we “used to be”. Which is quite sad because with God you can and will always be great. You don’t need anyone’s approval for that!

Matthew 6:33 states, “But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.” God wouldn’t want you to keep hitting a flatline. He wants you to transcend and grow but you must read His word and trust Him like the scripture says.

In conclusion, fitting in is overrated. If you keep trying to fit in you will suffocate from your own understanding. You are afraid to step out because it’s not comfortable, not normal, or even just too abnormal for your liking. You’ve spent the majority of your life trying to gain the satisfaction of others but not God. How do you sound? Goofy, that’s how you sound! I choose to be abnormal and follow God because He makes sense, not the world’s wicked contradictions. Whenever you feel lost or alone I want to remember that His people have it hard because we know the truth in a world that loves to sleep. When more and more people wake up that’s when they’ll see the light. Until then, just pray that they’ll awaken from the darkness!

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