Withdrawal sucks!

“Withdrawl sucks”

Anybody that’s ever battled addiction will tell you that withdrawals suck. It doesn’t matter if it’s porn, drinking, sex, food, etc. In your earlier stages of sobriety, you are just trying to stay sane.

Since I haven’t been doing anything sexual I’ve been battling withdrawal. The symptoms are fatigue, irritability, and pain (more in my back and knees).

Three weeks ago, the pain was so dreadful I almost gave in. I told myself, “If I just do it once I’ll be fine. No one needs to know. Besides, I’ll feel better.”

I’ve experienced this many times with the following:

◾Being clean from drinking
◾Being clean from weed
◾Being clean from food addiction

As I sat in my room ready to be sexually immoral with my body I heard a voice say, “You’re bought by Christ!” Tbh, that scared me!
Instead of giving in to temptation, I fleed (1 Corinthians 6:18)

Was it easy? No! But I had the fear of God in me. I knew it was wrong to look at that material because it’s not in God’s design.

Not too many of my family and friends are married and following the Gospel. IMO, it seems that their lack of knowledge (Hosea 4:6) is continuing to destroy them. Most of my friends and family believe it is not a sin to:

◾Have sex before marriage
◾Masturbate
◾Men having sex with men
◾Women having sex with women

However, it is. 1 Corinthians 6:18 (NIV)
Flee from sexual immorality. All other sins a person commits are outside the body, but whoever sins sexually, sins against their own body.

Marriage is when a man and a woman come together and become one flesh (Genesis 2:24). Any form of sex before marriage opens up soul ties.

Soul ties are good when men and women become one flesh. However, when a man or a woman is having multiple partners they are bonded to them. This is why it is good to stay a virgin and not look at porn because sex is a sacred bond that is not supposed to be taken lightly.

I read a book called, “Breaking Soul Ties” by Dr. Dennis and Jennifer Clark. In Chapter 1, “Caught in a Trap” Jason tells his story about how he and Lana were in a toxic relationship. In summary, they were on and off because she was emotionally and physically abusive.

On page 5 Jason says, “The road incident was the last straw, Lana insisted that we go to the grocery store in the wee hours of the morning, even though I hadn’t had any sleep that night and needed to leave for work at five-thirty. While she was driving to the store, she got angry and smacked me hard across the bridge of my nose with the back of her hand. I’d had enough. Without warning, I abruptly unbuckled my seat belt, threw it off me, and yanked open the door to throw myself out of the moving car. My thinking was that I’d die or be hurt badly enough to be admitted to the hospital, but either possibility was better than being with Lana.”

Jason would miss her and battle with loneliness and self-esteem issues. But until he connected with God that’s when he realized God’s love is all he ever needed.

Withdrawal sucks but suffering in silence, soul ties, toxic partners/relationships, night terrors, and not being able to connect with anyone is worse. Especially in the context of sexual addiction. If you do not understand that sex is a sacred bond between a man and a woman in the covenant of marriage, you will never experience love. You will just experience lust! Many people need God’s love, not the world’s love.

Romans 5:8, “But God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” That is the meaning of love. Not the worldly nonsense you hear! God gave his only begotten son Jesus to die for our sins so we can experience love. Anyone who was once addicted to anything is now made whole in His image. (2 Corinthians 5:17) You aren’t the old you and God loves you. Stick close to Him because, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” (Matthew 19:26)

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