When I was eight I watched Halloween (1978) for the first time and I was terrified. I remember not being able to sleep at night for a little while. I didn’t share this with anyone because I didn’t want to seem weak. That was a mistake!
Years progressed and I became numb to violence. Whether it was the basketball court, a horror film, or anything painful, I was still comfortably numb.
Horror films caused me to have violent nightmares. One night, someone was choking me. Oddly enough, I didn’t try to stop it, and instead, I laughed. In my later twenties I scaled back on the horror films I saw but I still had nightmares.
Things got worse!
◾I watched horror films and just wanted to see everyone die.
◾I lacked compassion for anyone in my life who were in pain.
◾I worshipped Michael Myers, Jason Voorhees, and Freddy Kreuger like they were gods
◾I found myself emphasizing and even taking the side of the killer
Overall, my mind was distorted. The more I cling to God’s heart and remain sober-minded I’m realizing all of the wrongs I have done because I didn’t know (Hosea 4:6). However, I am forever thankful to be born again.
This blog I’ve been meaning to drop for a hot minute but I wasn’t sure how. The scripture says in Luke 12:3, “Therefore whatever you have said in the dark shall be heard in the light, and what you have whispered in private rooms shall be proclaimed on the housetops.” I don’t want to live in darkness anymore. Everything that I’ve done in the dark has to come to the light. Also, I share this if people feel weird after watching horror films. You and I may relate.
Halloween is no longer my favorite film. It’s Antoine Fisher. Do I mind the occasional violence in other films? No. But since I’ve been bought by Christ, studying the Word, changed my film selection, and pray more, my spirit doesn’t feel right about watching horror films.
Also, these days I am very selective of what films I watch because your eye gate and ear gate affect your mood and will have you playing a character, instead of just being you. You are what you consume.
In context to me, I became an unapproachable guy who oftentimes looked scary. Did I mean to scare others? No. However, when I was watching so many horror films I lost compassion for myself and others. God designed me to be a warrior but also to be kind as well. He would not want me to have hatred for myself or anyone. He would want me to forgive and to leave it at the altar. All glory to Him for creating in me a new heart.
Revelation 12:11 New Living Translation
And they have defeated him by the blood of the Lamb and by their testimony. And they did not love their lives so much that they were afraid to die.